Change...

I guess people change. Well, I don't guess... I know they do. I notice it everywhere now. Change pretty much is what life is: Adapting to changes. I see people change more and more over every passing day, it's unreal. My best freinds, Some now my ex best friends. My family, My surroundings, technology, everything. It's virtually impossible to escape. But in the end, you have to deal with it. And I'm not so sure how I'm going to. Life goes on, and tears fade, but right now, it doesn't seem like they will.

My best friends changed so much over the past years. Makaela: it seems to me she's completely forgotten me as of last month, after moving to Las Vegas over a year ago. Now, I know that Myspace is a dumb thing to overlook as forgetting, but it seems logical to me. I'm not on her top friends anymore, and I (along with the city Post Falls, itself) is erased from the about me section. It's like I don't even know her anymore.

My other best friend: Allie. This change is good and bad, i think. Like she isn't shy anymore, and she has a boyfriend now(ex,lol), even though I find my self jealous over this, I'm still happy for this change... Then came Bryan...hmmm, this boy, it seems, is using her, and now addicted to Allie. I'm not so sure what to think of her anymore, now that he got on the otherside of her. I'm not so much as mad, just extremely, disappointed in her, like I can't trust her. I know I can, but my feeling toward her change, seeing as how desperate she has become over the last few weeks, actually, and it makes me see how I want nothing to do with it. I love Allie to death, but my respect and looking up to her fades more and more everyday. Her reputation is down the drain in my mind, even though nobody knows her secret. I noticed how much she tries. And desperate to have a boyfriend she really is. I don't want to be like that, in any way. I want to be independant and myself. I don't want high school to define me, but in a different sense, I want to define high school. I am proud I haven't gotten in to any of that stuff. And I'm proud to say, that I will not in any way be apart of that part of high school. It's pretty much the cliche of high school girls. Sex, drugs, boys. The usual. I'm not who I was a year ago.
My expectations for her, I thought, were a higher level of what she's showing now. I don't think I know how to react to her actions. I feel like I'm being her babysitter, and I care for her, and I don't want to see her go down that path. I don't see how the change is good anymore. It seems like she strives to be like popular girls, when she, in reality is nothing like them. She is unique, and beautiful. She just doesn't realize it quite yet.